“Ain’t nothin’ gonna break my stride, nobody’s gonna slow me down”

There is so much going on in this head of mine that I can’t even begin to make sense of any of it. The good part is that I don’t really NEED to make sense of it. I’m really just sort of going with the flow. Which is a bit weird feeling, but I like it. I have my usual worries and concerns, but for the most part I’m just trying to get through life as happy as I possibly can. I’m trying to smile more. And I’m not questioning why certain things or people make me smile more than others.

As far as my exercising/eating right/getting healthy thing goes… well, it goes. Lately I’ve been feeling really motivated to keep pushing forward. It’s funny though. Monday I could be thinking “I rock. The sky is the limit!” and then Tuesday after working out I feel like a fat schmuck who is just never going to get there. And by Wednesday it’s anybody’s guess as to how I perceive myself. But for the most part I’m staying positive. I’ve seen a slight change in my body. My tummy is just a teeny tiny bit smaller. I think my ass is shrinking a smidgen. But I don’t see a difference in my thighs or arms. However I do feel a slight difference. I went up in weights in how many reps per set I do with the leg extensions. And on the leg press I’ve gone up one level in weight. I’ve started using a 10 pound weight when I do my reverse sit-ups. And just today I went up by 10 pounds on the rowing pull thing. So something is happening to my body even if my eyes aren’t reaping the benefits, so to speak.

I am realizing that I really need to try and save as much money as humanly possible right now so that when the time comes, I can have at least a small down payment for a new car. Sadly the car I thought I’d be getting might be out of my grasp. But I was fortunate enough to find a less expensive car that might work. I haven’t had the chance to test drive either of them yet, but they are both certainly practical cars.

I hope I can maintain this go-get-em attitude. I need to stay positive. I need to stay happy. I want to stay positive and happy. I want to enjoy life and all it has to offer.