Saturday, September 15, 2012

"I need a little room to breathe cause I'm one step closer to the edge... I'm about to break"

Since the end of May, with the exception of one random Saturday, this is the first Saturday that I don’t have set plans. I don’t have to be ANYWHERE. Do you have any idea how good it feels? That means that of the last 15 Saturdays, 14 of them meant I had plans with a friend/friends. I could feel it starting to wear on me. Yes, I generally have Sundays to do whatever I please, but it just doesn’t hold the same as a Saturday. On Sundays I wake up early and go to church. Sometimes I go to my parents’ house after and visit with them, and other times I come home and do laundry and general cleaning. So to me, while it can be a day of rest, it isn’t the same as taking a Saturday to do nothing. The idea of not having any commitments to be anywhere is so freeing. Yes, I probably upset some people today by turning down plans. I could’ve had day plans with two different people, and night plans with another. But I had to hold my ground and tell them that I was sorry, but I basically needed a mental health day. And for this mental health day I am grateful.







No comments: